
Autumn- the season of fall fashion, pumpkin spice calorie bombs, and trees so colorful it looks as if God himself has a scrap bag of yarn with which he knits cozy, colorful sweaters to wrap the hillsides in. For me, it is also the season when dread begins to peak out from under the comfy blanket of summer and chills the tip of my nose. It always starts when the days begin to shorten. I’m no longer basking in the luxury of free daylight from 5:30 AM to 9:30PM. I wistfully remember bouncing out of bed with the sun, excited by the prospects of Energizer bunny levels of productivity. Instead, I resentfully crawl out from under chilled covers onto moonlit ice-cold floors, with a pessimistic nod to a long list of unchecked to-do boxes. My energy and mood contracts with the daylight. I know what comes next, but I avoid thinking or uttering the word, hoping that somehow silence will make it imaginary, rather than imminent. Yes, I dread, loathe, and harbor levels of contempt as high as the piles of dirty clothes in my laundry room for (whispers)…w-i-n-t-e-r. I don’t even want to type the word. I have goosebumps already, and it’s not even December.
When autumn starts to tip-toe in, the temperatures dip their toes into the shallow end of the pool at dawn and dusk giving us a pleasant revival of our melted summer sensibilities. I think to myself, “This is refreshing. I can do this! Maybe I’ve finally acclimated and winter won’t be so bad. I’ll dress for the weather. I am a woman warrior, descendant of Neanderthals, with outdoor chores to do and I will persevere!”
Then, the first day below 40 degrees arrives (that’s 4.4 degrees Celsius for the cooperative lot of you, who acknowledge the world-wide temperature standard). I step outside in the “mildly” cool temperatures; I take a breath, my lungs contract and…winter gleefully slaps me in the face with my frozen list of unachieved summer goals and skips away laughing as my feet slip out from under me on the ice, smacking all remaining motivation out of my head as it slams into the ground. Nope; not acclimated, never adapting.
So, what to do with my recently gifted present of depression, carelessly wrapped with dread and tied in a bow with ADHD- tinged procrastination ribbons? Let’s be honest- I unwrap the box, (because I LOVE gifts), and I wallow in its new contents for a few days, because it’s familiar and fuzzy. BUT then… there comes a moment when there is no longer any empty space on the counter.. or the coffee table… or the laundry room floor…and my Neanderthal female warrior awakes. Well, really she stumbles on the stuff all over the floor and has no choice but to start picking things up one at at time.
The first thing I pick up is my Bible. My go to for when times get tough. It’s really my go-to first thing every morning (well, most mornings- sometimes familiar and fuzzy win). I used to do this out of obedience, like I would get some kind of a “best student” award from God if I just read the Bible every day. Then, it became more like a habit; “I’m out of bed, so this is what I do, cause anything else would take too much thought.” And then, it became a necessity to start my day with the right perspective- that God loves me, gave his life to prove it, he wants a relationship with me; and by the way- it’s not all about me, it’s about the things he has given me to accomplish in this life with, and for others. God doesn’t need me to read the Bible, I need the Bible to grow my relationship with God.
So, I’ve picked up my Bible; I’ve read it, but I’m still depressed, I’m still procrastinating, I’m still freezing, and my cat ate the procrastination ribbons and puked them up all over the floor- now what? Life is hard! We live on a broken planet with our broken selves. Like a candy apple dipped in tar, we may be created in the image of a holy God, but we know we’re far from holy and can’t escape the sticky film of selfishness through which we view everything around us. The next step is to pray and actually meditate on what we’ve read.
The Bible is clear and helps remind me that God gives us a helper- several actually. Very few things are free in life, especially help; but God promises us helpers to use every second of every day, we just have to ask. No subscription plan, no one-time down payment, just your request. The Bible talks about these helpers in Ephesians 1:3 (ESV) “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places…” and in 2 Peter 1:3-4 (ESV), “His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through our knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire.”
This help may come in many forms:
–The Holy Spirit– This is a difficult concept to grasp for a world dependent on what is tangible, however, if you’ve ever experienced the still, quiet voice that asks you to do hard things, you know it’s real. God gives us the free will to listen or ignore that voice. Below are a few of many verses that point to references made regarding the Holy Spirit within the Bible.
Romans 8:26-27 (ESV) “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.”
John 14:15-17 (ESV) “If you love me, you will keep my commandments. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you.”
–The Word of God– The first place we should turn when we seek God’s guidance and assistance. The Bible is full of references to the power and wisdom available to those willing to seek God through the reading of his Word. Below are a few of my favorite verses:
Hebrews 4:12 (ESV) “For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.”
Psalm 119:105 (ESV) “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”
–Angels– The word angel is used over 200 times in the Bible. The two verses below are just two of many references to angels and their interactions with humanity.
Matthew 18:10 (ESV) “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven.”
Hebrews 1:14 (ESV) “Are they not all ministering spirits sent out to serve for the sake of those who are to inherit salvation?”
Pslam 91:11 (ESV) “For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways.”
–Human Beings– the Bible makes many notable references to human helpers and friends that support us in our journey. For example, Romans 16 is filled with references of “fellow workers” in Christ. Have you ever had someone help you out when you most needed it, with no benefit to themselves or expectations in return? It is quite likely the love of Christ working through human hands. Christ set the ultimate example for us when he arrived on planet earth in human form, and allowed us to nail him to the cross as the only sacrifice holy enough to allow our sorry butts to be forgiven and gain us access into heaven and eternity with our loving creator. In his infinite wisdom, he knew we could never do it on our own, so as the ultimate example of a loving father, he did it for us. Once again, all we have to do is ask in order to receive his help.
So, if you wake up one, morning, like I have, and wonder how you’re going to put one foot in front of the other on the icy, cold floor of winter despondency, I hope this gives you some hope and guidance. Just be sure to turn the light on first- there may be cat puke on the floor.







